9/11...a decade later

you know...i was at work early...really early on that day. we had a meeting that was going to happen that day. it never did.

i had the television on...it was 6am-just for the noise. i glanced up to see a news report about a plane crashing into one of the towers. my thought..."what an idiot! who flys that low in NYC!" then the next one struck. i was appalled but when i heard that the pentagon was struck. at that point i knew we were at war. the only thing was...with whom???

then my thoughts turned to the people trying to escape. i had friends and a family member in that inferno that day. they did not make it. the feeling of helplessness and then of anger at the way our nation was attacked. all i could think of at the time was-nothing. i was numb. crying.

it only took a few moments for the security we all felt in this country to be shattered. we have been trying to get it back since. the one thing that saddens me is that innocent people of all races and beliefs died in this attack. we crucified many using religion as the common denominator. it was sad to see that a country..our country used this. our own foundation was due to the freedom of religion and here we were-laying blame on many due to religion.

over the years i saw hatred aimed at the believers of Islam. i saw many also aim hatred at those who defended them. within the community of Muslims-they condemned the fools who did this to not just them but to the world. i also saw that many started to see the human side of the believers. it made me feel better knowing that some sense was finally coming back into

this country i love.

the one thing i do not want to see again-is attacks within our borders. i think those days are gone. we are attacked from within-not by a religion but by fools whose aim is to destroy and disrupt our society with the violent hatred they harbor toward anyone not like them.

the land of the free is still the land of the free. we may carry some scars but we will persevere and just keep growing stronger-even with all the stupidity going on in our government. the people in this wonderful country will overcome obstacles.

Warned...

yea…told me once.

you told me twice.

but did i listen…nope.

i just kept coming back for more.

i thought that maybe with time you would see.

i mean really see!

you did…but only what you wanted to see. 

so i left you a note-hoping you would read it.

i found an empty space instead.

you became busier than usual

i found that i wasn’t as sad as i thought i would be

in fact, what i found was a feeling of peace.

strange that it took a bitch to make me look deeper

at the time it seemed important

you seemed important.

now-my path has opened onto another road

now-you are warned

once and only once

open your eyes

because now-it is my turn-it is my time

© Sept 09, 2011/cb

El Camino del Destino ~ Destiny's Path

El Camino del Destino


Hoy día, estás en mi mente Papá 
Esto día tu y yo caminamos en las playas 
Las playas de la cual siempre tuvistes tanto placer

Tomamos la carretera a través de las Sierras 
Una ruta escénica y tu camino preferido para viajar 
Finalmente llegando aquí, a estas playas, escuchando los sonidos del océano 

Hablamos sobre muchas temas tu y yo 
El futuro que predicastes; finalmente sucedió 
Independientemente del resultado, así es la vida, sé que esto te hizo triste 

Nuestra conversación se puso muy serio cuando hablamos de Mamá 
Finalmente me di cuenta lo mucho que realmente la amabas
Debería haberle dicho en la vida, ahora cuenta los días para su fin de vida

Mija finalmente se graduó y está empezando su carrera, yo se que sabias 
Te vi de pie a su lado cuando ella recibió su título 
Ella sabía que estaba junto a ella, su sonrisa brillaba como el sol 

Mientras mama,  el día de hoy,  te visita en ese lugar oscuro donde están tus cenizas 
Tu, en cambio,  está aquí conmigo en el sol 
Puedo sentir el calor de tu mano sobre mi piel 

Sentí el silencio cuando estaba a solas, las olas jugando con mis pies 
Te escuche cuando te fuistes de mi lado por un tiempo 
Sé que fuistes a visitar a Mamá, sentí el amor de ambos uno al otro 

Papá, sé que cuando el día de hoy termina, 
habrá un camino diferente para que ti y yo 
Siento que no te voy a volver a ver a menudo de nuevo a partir de ahora 

Tus días de apoyo silencioso, finalmente terminará 
Te voy echar de menos, pero siempre te llevo en mi corazón 
Me tengo que parar por mi cuenta y caminar por las playas y las montañas solas 

El camino del destino nos separa ahora, yo por un lado y tu por otra 
Nuestros días finalmente han llegado a su fin; Voy a tener cerca en mi corazón

Nuestras conversaciones a lo largo de las playas y las sierras

Adiós  Papa

Te quiero mucho

Adiós 

Destiny’s Path


Today, you were on my mind Dad
This day you and I walked on the beaches
The beaches of which you always took so much pleasure in

We took the road through the Sierras
A scenic route and your preferred road to travel
Finally arriving here, to these beaches; hearing the ocean sounds

We talked about many topics you and I
The future which you predicted; finally came to pass
Regardless of the outcome, thus is life, I know this saddened you

Our conversation became very serious when we spoke of Mom
I finally realized just how much you really loved her
You should have told her in life, now she counts the days for her end

Mija  finally graduated and is starting her career, this you know
I saw you standing at her side as she received her degree
She knew you were next to her, her smile shone like the sun

While Mom this day visits that dark place where your ashes are
You are here with me in the sun
I can feel the warmth of your hand upon my skin

I felt the quiet as I was alone, the waves playing with my feet
I heard you leave for a while
I know you went to visit Mama-I felt the love you have for her

Dad, I know when this day ends,

there will be a different path for you and I
I feel that I will not see you very back often from now on

Your days of silent support will finally end
I will miss you but I will always carry you in my heart

I have to stand on my own and walk the beaches and mountains alone

The path of destiny divides us now; I must go one way while you go another

Our days have finally come to an end

I will hold close our talks along the beaches and the Sierras

Farewell Dad

I love you

Farewell

© 2010 may 23/cb