Song Bird

The songbirds are at it again

Singing only the way that they can

They sing of happiness as I can detect no sadness

They sing of love as they are responding to each other

It seems that my life is like this now - singing all the time

Not filled with any sorrow or pain or regrets

But a song which fills my soul and comes from the heart

It is a song of love - of happiness

© cb-may 2012

Warned...

yea…told me once.

you told me twice.

but did i listen…nope.

i just kept coming back for more.

i thought that maybe with time you would see.

i mean really see!

you did…but only what you wanted to see. 

so i left you a note-hoping you would read it.

i found an empty space instead.

you became busier than usual

i found that i wasn’t as sad as i thought i would be

in fact, what i found was a feeling of peace.

strange that it took a bitch to make me look deeper

at the time it seemed important

you seemed important.

now-my path has opened onto another road

now-you are warned

once and only once

open your eyes

because now-it is my turn-it is my time

© Sept 09, 2011/cb

Disconnect

“Damnit!!!”

Cursing out loud; she breathed in deeply. She thought she could handle it.  No wait, she was lying to herself.  She knew she could not.  When he had asked a few weeks back, she ignored the question hoping that maybe it was just rhetoric.  Sadly, it was not.

It has been such a great time.  The connection was awesome between them.  Normally she did not get attached so quickly but she found herself looking forward to talking with him.  Soon it turned into more but that damn statement of his.  He sure got through her walls.

“Damnit! Damnit!! Damnit!!!” 

Her eyes welled with tears.  She stubbornly wiped them away.   Good thing she held it together until he left.  Her heart was still pounding with pain.  She needed to disconnect somehow.  Unplug those feelings.  She bit her lower lip as she held back pain. 

Men!  But then it was her fault too.  She allowed herself to become involved knowing that there may be nothing there and he had a roving eye.

“Disconnect, need to disconnect” 

Those were her last thoughts as she drifted into troubled sleep.

©2011 feb/cb

Bloody Endings

That knife thrust deep into me

Over and over repeating that night

The sudden darkness which came into my life

A jagged gash across my heart

Wounded feeling of intense pain

Blood gushing forth with no end

Forbidden caresses of warm wanton flesh

Hungrily dining on each other skin

Feeding our carnal desires

Those lips so tender yet brutal upon my skin

Burning your brand upon me

A sweet torture gladly returned

Our nights turned into days

The days into nights

A cycle repeating itself time and time again

There is and was only you-only me-only us

Fire and ice; never lukewarm

Matches lighting an intense bonfire

Forging from that fire an intense love

Born from a reality not anticipated

A whisper turning into groans of ecstasy

Now suddenly it is gone; you are gone-we are gone

Hidden by the darkness leaving intense pain

Suffocating fires burning a hole through my very soul

That knife so sharp keeps turning

Rending my heart into pieces

Bleeding me to death...

© 2010 may 26/cb