The Eloquence of Silence

The noises all around me


Clanging noisily all day


The buzzing in my ears just won’t stop






Mouths are constantly noisy


Megaphones for gossip and garbage


Rarely is the silence allowed to stay






When the day is done


All the dishes put away


It is the bewitching hour






With a glance we say it all


It takes just a touch


Then the magic starts






Softly breathing


Soft kisses tell us all


Without a word we start






All the urges and wanting


Build up in crescendo


Climaxing within our souls






When it is finally finished


It is the warmth of us


This needs no words






It is the silence of love


Of total fulfillment


Resting in each other’s arms











© 2010 apr 09/cb

True Colors

You say yellow; I say blue


You say cold; I say warm


You say what you say; yet I am wrong






Little things keep building up; taking its toll


The pros and cons; the list keeps getting longer


There is more negative these days; the positive is lost






When we click; it is heaven on earth


Connections of the mind, body and soul; nothing interferes


Yet different point view we clash; no middle ground is found






Religion, politics-everyday affairs; daily a sadness creeps in


We are far-then close-then far again; this yo-yo keeps going on


Ranting and raving-yelling; where has the tenderness gone?






My breath is held-suspended in life; my steps are paused


You do not like who I am; these changes have been subtle


Slapped in the face; my pride-your pride-both have been hurt






True colors starting to bleed; reality is seeping in


You walked away without a glance; rage coloring your exit


My feet stand ready to fly; do I stand or do I stand down?






Do I stand or do I stand down...











© 2010 31 may/cb

Fading

Dreams; nothing more than memories

The things we did; of what we planned

The murmuring of all the endearments

Soft laughter full of sensual meaning

Eyes sparkling in the light of the moon



Each moment is treasured; each emotion catalogued

The pleasures, the disagreements, the reunions

Each word full of flavor with all its nuances

Love in all its glory; compassion and pitfalls

Even anger and disappointment; communication rectified



Dreams; these memories are fragile in this condition

Writing fades upon parchment; turning into dust

Visual views of these pages are limited

The sands of time-whatever that reality is

Cannot be held by the flesh of my hands



Be in my dreams forever as the reality

Makes no sense in the light of day

The granules of time; like sand

Seems to slip between my fingers

Leaving me with empty hands



Keep me in forever; where we will always be happy

Where the flames of love and affection will never fade

Demons and angels accompany us; that too is real there

Our dreams will be continue therein; never false

Hold me tight; my dreams are fading fast...













© 2010 30 may/cb

Ghosts

My dreams are filled

With the visions of you

Times of laughter and conversation

They are filled

With all the innocent touches between us

The warmth and spontaneity

With you all became an adventure

A world filled with explorations

Times of excitement and laughter

The times of sensuality

Filled with sensitivity and tenderness

Lust filled adventures driving us both wild

This was us and more, so much more

We melded in mind, spirit and heart

You were my encouragement

When guidance was needed

Your wisdom was sought

Even though sometimes we fought

Now you have become a ghost

Not of my choosing, a whisper of the past

It is slowly killing me, I am dying

© 2010 apr 27/cb

Taste of Honey

Honey drips from my breast

Increasing in running streams

Sweet milk of wet dreams

Heavy with hopes

Your tongue playfully licks

Tasting your first sip

As your yearning increases

Suckling harder at my breast

Tasting lustful fulfillment

Gorging yourself upon my milk

As a babe in arms squeezing

Slightly biting to hear my moans

My full breast in your mouth

Drawing me in with your soft moans

Now my turn to yearn for more

Your soft steady sucking

Resonates deep inside

My femininity fully engorged

Nectar of the gods

A taste of honey

Sweetness made for wet dreams

© 2010 may 28/cb

Guardian Angel

Man on the moon


High up in the sky


Round and bright


You are tonight






Looking down


Upon this earth


Smiling upon


Those sleeping below






Peeking into dreams


Seeking one to grant


A something special


A gift so divine






Counting heads


As they count sheep


Finally you come upon


The one in need






Gently oh so gently


Your bright light


Softly kisses


The fortunate one






A blessing laid


Upon that brow


Deep sighs escaping


The sleeping form






With deep satisfaction


You hurry back


To your place


Upon the moon






Back to the light


High up in the sky


Guardian angel


Of silent prayers





© 2010 may 26/cb

Bloody Endings

That knife thrust deep into me

Over and over repeating that night

The sudden darkness which came into my life

A jagged gash across my heart

Wounded feeling of intense pain

Blood gushing forth with no end

Forbidden caresses of warm wanton flesh

Hungrily dining on each other skin

Feeding our carnal desires

Those lips so tender yet brutal upon my skin

Burning your brand upon me

A sweet torture gladly returned

Our nights turned into days

The days into nights

A cycle repeating itself time and time again

There is and was only you-only me-only us

Fire and ice; never lukewarm

Matches lighting an intense bonfire

Forging from that fire an intense love

Born from a reality not anticipated

A whisper turning into groans of ecstasy

Now suddenly it is gone; you are gone-we are gone

Hidden by the darkness leaving intense pain

Suffocating fires burning a hole through my very soul

That knife so sharp keeps turning

Rending my heart into pieces

Bleeding me to death...

© 2010 may 26/cb

El Camino del Destino ~ Destiny's Path

El Camino del Destino


Hoy día, estás en mi mente Papá 
Esto día tu y yo caminamos en las playas 
Las playas de la cual siempre tuvistes tanto placer

Tomamos la carretera a través de las Sierras 
Una ruta escénica y tu camino preferido para viajar 
Finalmente llegando aquí, a estas playas, escuchando los sonidos del océano 

Hablamos sobre muchas temas tu y yo 
El futuro que predicastes; finalmente sucedió 
Independientemente del resultado, así es la vida, sé que esto te hizo triste 

Nuestra conversación se puso muy serio cuando hablamos de Mamá 
Finalmente me di cuenta lo mucho que realmente la amabas
Debería haberle dicho en la vida, ahora cuenta los días para su fin de vida

Mija finalmente se graduó y está empezando su carrera, yo se que sabias 
Te vi de pie a su lado cuando ella recibió su título 
Ella sabía que estaba junto a ella, su sonrisa brillaba como el sol 

Mientras mama,  el día de hoy,  te visita en ese lugar oscuro donde están tus cenizas 
Tu, en cambio,  está aquí conmigo en el sol 
Puedo sentir el calor de tu mano sobre mi piel 

Sentí el silencio cuando estaba a solas, las olas jugando con mis pies 
Te escuche cuando te fuistes de mi lado por un tiempo 
Sé que fuistes a visitar a Mamá, sentí el amor de ambos uno al otro 

Papá, sé que cuando el día de hoy termina, 
habrá un camino diferente para que ti y yo 
Siento que no te voy a volver a ver a menudo de nuevo a partir de ahora 

Tus días de apoyo silencioso, finalmente terminará 
Te voy echar de menos, pero siempre te llevo en mi corazón 
Me tengo que parar por mi cuenta y caminar por las playas y las montañas solas 

El camino del destino nos separa ahora, yo por un lado y tu por otra 
Nuestros días finalmente han llegado a su fin; Voy a tener cerca en mi corazón

Nuestras conversaciones a lo largo de las playas y las sierras

Adiós  Papa

Te quiero mucho

Adiós 

Destiny’s Path


Today, you were on my mind Dad
This day you and I walked on the beaches
The beaches of which you always took so much pleasure in

We took the road through the Sierras
A scenic route and your preferred road to travel
Finally arriving here, to these beaches; hearing the ocean sounds

We talked about many topics you and I
The future which you predicted; finally came to pass
Regardless of the outcome, thus is life, I know this saddened you

Our conversation became very serious when we spoke of Mom
I finally realized just how much you really loved her
You should have told her in life, now she counts the days for her end

Mija  finally graduated and is starting her career, this you know
I saw you standing at her side as she received her degree
She knew you were next to her, her smile shone like the sun

While Mom this day visits that dark place where your ashes are
You are here with me in the sun
I can feel the warmth of your hand upon my skin

I felt the quiet as I was alone, the waves playing with my feet
I heard you leave for a while
I know you went to visit Mama-I felt the love you have for her

Dad, I know when this day ends,

there will be a different path for you and I
I feel that I will not see you very back often from now on

Your days of silent support will finally end
I will miss you but I will always carry you in my heart

I have to stand on my own and walk the beaches and mountains alone

The path of destiny divides us now; I must go one way while you go another

Our days have finally come to an end

I will hold close our talks along the beaches and the Sierras

Farewell Dad

I love you

Farewell

© 2010 may 23/cb

i like

i like the rain...and how it makes noises on the glass

i like the rainbows...when the sun shines through the rain

i like the clouds...fluffy, stormy, wispy or not at all!

i like to drive...topless in the warmth of the sun

i like the speed...the feel of the wind upon my face

i like the road...winding, long, short but a path to follow

i like ice cream...the creamy smoothness of it all

i like lazy days...it is the day meant for blissful emptiness of mind

i like observing...people and all their idiosyncratic ways

i like intelligence...in the animals, mammals and humans

i like simplicity...simply that-simplicity

i like time...even when it slips through my fingers

i liked my childhood...the innocence and freedom

i liked my teen years...rebel without a cause!

i like my adult years...despite the variations and fluctuations

i like to live...to feel all the sensations of life

all that encompass the heart and soul

all that makes me...me!

© 2010 may 23/cb

...Re-telling THE day

Yesterday was graduation day-commencement ceremonies for the Class of 2010 at Cal State University, Northridge; better known as CSUN.

The first two days of this week we had rain and boy did it rain!!! The University had been holding commencement exercises since Monday-two a day as there were that many candidates receiving degrees. (This brought back memories of a rain-soaked day of my daughter's high school graduation. That day we ended up soaked to the skin and the graduates were just as soaked! I was praying that would not be the case on this night. ) As it turned out, the day dawned with sun and the heat just started! The commencement was scheduled for 6:30pm and it went off on schedule.

However, taking it back a few hours here, we needed to be ready and on our way by 4pm. The question of seating was always problematic as we never knew just how crowded it would get. Everyone arrived on time except for one of my sisters. The laughable part is that my brother is usually the LATE one, so when he was on time we were all amazed! Needless to say, my brother took my mother, my daughter and his kids to campus as my daughter had to be there by 5pm. I waited for my sister with one of our family friends.

She finally showed up about 15 minutes later. My brother-in-law is a good guy but boy oh boy....a very careful driver in a situation where we needed to get there fast. Oh well. We found parking on campus but a 25 minute walk. (At the end of the night I will come to appreciate this.) As we finally arrived at the Library where the commencement was to be held, we ran into my daughter's Dad and family. They were smart and found seating under the shade of the trees. I spent some time with them not just because I had not seen them in while but because the shade felt so good!!! OMG was it hot!!!! My daughter was visiting there as well; her fancy decorated grad cap helped me see her!! This is when I found out WHERE my brother decided to find seating. NOT the best place.

As I had already mentioned, it was a VERY hot day and in keeping with my brothers viewpoint, he sought shade. Never mind that we may not be able to see my daughter graduate but he wanted shade. Following my daughters directions plus additional calls to my brother's mobile I managed to find them. ALL THE WAY UP THE BLEACHERS but in the shade.

As I saw them way and looked at the steps I needed to take to get to them, I thought, my aerobics workout for the day and then some will be done today. Heels are not an option but I was wearing them and up I climbed. Did I mention it was HOT?? So here I am dressed in heels and appropriate attire climbing up bleacher steps...I wanted to kill my brother! I finally made it slightly out of breath and with one look, my brother knew, and he just started to laugh!!! HE knew what I was thinking!! Finally settling down and cooling down, he did offer a choice of drinks, water, Gatorade or Vitamin water; for which I was grateful but it did not get him out of trouble with me!

The drama did not stop there however. Soon the "air horn" police were on the prowl. In an effort for the ceremony to be dignified, air horns were apparently outlawed. They also neglected to make any kind of announcement of this. So yes, as it is in our rebellious natures to just ignore what is NOT in print, we used the air horns and hid them with the volunteer students would come by. It was fun to see them run up the steps in an effort to "confiscate" the offending items from the families. We did have a few laughs at their expense...what can I say!! The other incident was not so funny as this is where I got my payback. A woman was sitting two rows in front of us with the LARGEST BALLOON BOUQUET you could possibly buy. They are supposed to keep them low so that those behind her can see. Well, the ceremony started and of course, OUR view along with a few others, was obscured. She was asked politely by more than a few to move them which she pointedly ignored. Until the moment my brother told her...in English...that he will get his gun and shoot them down. Amazingly, she recovered her hearing and moved them. She knew she was wrong but she did not even apologize to anyone around her. THAT is in considerate to the max!!

As the ceremony progressed, the University President, continued on and even gave detailed instructions to both parents and candidates as to where to turn when and when to sit! I really felt that I was 6 years old but then I do believe that was her personality. She was an alumna of the School of Education at CSUN-made sense to me! The moment of my daughter's graduation finally arrived and we almost missed it!! She used her entire name which threw us all and she walked so fast..it truly was 30 seconds of fame! My brother and nephew barely used the air horns but they did manage. My brother freezing his hand as he had it turned the wrong way!! We did laugh and now we just waited for the end.

Once the procession, the graduates and the music had ended, it was time to find her among the thousands out there. Thank God for technology!!! We all managed to find her after coming down from the heavens (remember the top of the bleachers) and finding our way through the crowd. Along the way my muscles started to protest plus sitting on those bleachers is never a comfortable experience!

Time for the kisses and hugs; the tears and the cheers; the pictures upon pictures! Yes we did that for at least an hour. The grandmothers held up pretty well but they started to get cold. So a part of the crowd shuffled off to chauffeur one of them home. The other on held on a little longer but she did not leave until she secured a promise from me to go and see her. She bribed me with her cooking!!! Yummy! I would go to see her without the bribe though! My daughter's Dad finally took off with his Mom and wife.

Now it was down to just us and the graduate. My brother, niece and nephew and I started the long walk to the parked car. Little did I know just how far it was! The 25 minute walk into the ceremony grounds was a piece of cake compared to where my brother parked. it took us 40 minutes. I had kicked off my heels and was walking barefooted. I was sore and tired. My daughter looked happy but exhausted!

We did stop along the way home to pick up some Greek food, my daughter went out with her friends to eat at Fridays, and we all grubbed at home. Needless to say, it was a long day but with happy results!

Despite the sore muscles, sore feet, sore other places! It was a wonderful evening that finally culminated my daughter's scholastic life-at least for the moment!!

Kali's Heart

Come with me and you will see
A world full of imagination!
Fantasies or simple curiosity fulfilled


With a flick of my wrist there will appear
Whirling teacups, carousels and leaping fairies
Spilling forth from within my heart


A rollercoaster of emotions
Laughter, tears, fears and love
Take my hand and we will fly!


There will be music surrounding us
Allowing the notes to drift through our souls
We will twirl and dip in the light fantastic!


Our eyes will take images
Filling our minds with photographs
Longings made for the heart


With a quick naughty wink
Subtly we will find ourselves
Immersed in wanton lust


Then with a blink of surprise
We will be transported
Back to childhood innocent pleasures


Or possibly with some luck
Involvement in an epic story
Where knights, romance and chivalry live


A place of fairies and pixie dust
Wizards and witches both good and evil
The magic of runes and bones


Better still to places set
In the time of today
Full of mystery and intrigue


Parchment of old will we use
With loving harmony we will pen
A library filled with wonderment!


So come with me
Where you will travel
A world full of imagination




© 2010 apr 18/cb