An Angel's Face

Her eyes look at me when she thinks I don’t see

The beams of hatred feel like shards of glass plunging into me

Her words cut my skin like tiny knives

She waits for my reaction; waiting to see me run

I have learned to bite my tongue; many times bleeding

The hurt inside is terrible; the years have done nothing to lessen

My protection has been the promise forced at a death

A death that should have released her but instead bound her

Her retaliation was then her words used against those I love

Forcing the abandonment she wants yet it only fueled that hate

She has put scars on my emotions; my psyche

I carry physical scars on my scalp and face-no one knows

Yet I can forgive and even forget

There are times where she is kind; I want to love her

Then she has to spoil it by saying

It’s her house and she hates me as she points to the door

MSM©Oct 2014

No Cure

There is a glistening

Moisture felt in the soul

An ache in the heart

Loneliness starts this way

You think that it will pass

Instead it grows

You fight and fight

Hoping that the forced gaiety

Will drown that growing darkness

For a time-it may water it down

Shades of grey-almost clear

Your face wears a pasted smile

It is a cancer without a cure

The silence of it kills

It feeds on your need

It feeds on mine….

©cb July 2012

You Are Mine

Underneath the heavy veil which hid her face from all

The traces of salty tears dried upon her cheeks

Her gloved hands lay still upon her lap

Belying the anguish she felt earlier in the day

Her dark eyes made huge by her pale ivory skin

Heavy circles underneath the eyes growing darker with time

Gave testimony to the sleepless nights of late

Joyless cold dreams which brought her no comfort

She remembered his last words to her

It still filled her with love and despair

How he found what he so desperately sought

Held it in his hand and yet lost it at the same time

She remembered how many times

She would seek out his eyes – to see inside his soul

She remembered cold harsh words which cut deep as a knife

Knowing that none of it was meant to hurt, but it did

Now she could not take back the hurt she caused

The wind has taken away the words of forgiveness

The memory of his body lying lifeless on the floor

Gave her little comfort as the rain poured down on her

© 2010 06 un/cb

Tangled Up

Oh such sweet words we speak


Charming words of romance and flirtations


Such tenderness and warmth is conveyed


Reaching out to each other






Yet with a butterfly touch so delicate


These moments are completely shattered


Ripped apart by a careless whisper


Leaving shattered remnants behind






My heart bleeds with pain and confusion


My eyes fill with tears; salty taste upon my lips


My mind as frozen as my feet on this path


I cannot seem to step forward or backwards






My feelings scream for me to do something


Yet, I cannot as I do not know the solution


For as logical as I can be; this has no logic


It is an affair of the heart not of the mind






My mind tells me I need to pay attention


On one level we create such a passion


On another level we are complete opposites


Clashing with words; comprehension at a minimal






All I can do right now; is take deep breaths


I must find the courage-the words to speak


To find a way to untangle this mess


Will it be my heart who answers or my mind?








© 2010 4 jun/cb