Disconnect

“Damnit!!!”

Cursing out loud; she breathed in deeply. She thought she could handle it.  No wait, she was lying to herself.  She knew she could not.  When he had asked a few weeks back, she ignored the question hoping that maybe it was just rhetoric.  Sadly, it was not.

It has been such a great time.  The connection was awesome between them.  Normally she did not get attached so quickly but she found herself looking forward to talking with him.  Soon it turned into more but that damn statement of his.  He sure got through her walls.

“Damnit! Damnit!! Damnit!!!” 

Her eyes welled with tears.  She stubbornly wiped them away.   Good thing she held it together until he left.  Her heart was still pounding with pain.  She needed to disconnect somehow.  Unplug those feelings.  She bit her lower lip as she held back pain. 

Men!  But then it was her fault too.  She allowed herself to become involved knowing that there may be nothing there and he had a roving eye.

“Disconnect, need to disconnect” 

Those were her last thoughts as she drifted into troubled sleep.

©2011 feb/cb